some answers

In my last post I shared 3 huge events that influenced me.  In the last two days I have encountered 3 new people that have opened my eyes and offered so much clarity.  The 1st person being my acupuncturist who explained to me where my imbalances are and that through her applications of treatment and by how my body reacted, and her later meditation, that my archetype that is creating an imbalance is the saboteur.  She said my CF is fire meaning I'm very heart centered and emotion based.  Personal relationships with others is my emphasis, but my imbalance is that I look to others for approval.  I care too much what others think.  I have put on a mask to hide my emotions to not make others feel uncomfortable, and that I probably taught myself how to do this from a young age as a coping mechanism.  She told me that I'm one of the kindest and warmest people she knows, but that I have an inner conflict.  I need to meditate more and ask myself who I am and what I want.  I need to be authentic and stop hiding behind my mask.

The 2nd person of value in the last few days was a gentle man I met who gave me a tarot reading.  He gave me a 13 month reading, and my God will this be a year full of change!  He immediately touched his heart and said I'm holding so much emotion and stress here.  I was and do.  He told me he sees me to be wearing a mask.  It's almost like I have 2 sides that are disconnected.  The side I show and the side I hide.  Everyone does this to some extent.  My two halves are disconnected and I need to mend them together.  He said Muladhara, Anahata, Vishuddha, and Anja are out of balance.  That the next few months will be an emotional time for me where I need to look inward.  I need to overcome myself and my inner struggle.  Figure out what I want for my life.  He asked me to begin with muladhara, which is my connection with the physical world.  Clean the clutter from my house, clean and smudge my house.  Negative energy clings like static and clouds perspective.  After some reflection and introspection I will begin to move into a positive direction.  The details aren't important, but it confirms I have some inner work to do.

The 3rd person is Dr. David Russell who analyzed my DNA and blood chi from Denmark.  Here are his findings:

"Dear Tracy,

Thank you for your query. Your test showed the following:

Fundemental imbalances due to your constitution and history- asthi dhatu, adrenals, kidneys

Chronic toxin load- amalgams, pharmeceuticals, fluorine, sugar, dairy, mental, surgery.

Tattwa: Vaju imbalance

Chakra imbalances: Vishuddha, Anahata, Muladhara

Cause of thyroid issues: struma, chronic hepatitis (vaccine), surgical shock, pernicious anemia, mercury toxins, food allergies, hypothalamus dysfunction, immune cell dysfunctiuon, cancer patterns, spleen, stress, adrenals, genes.

Current emotional patterns up for resolution: life purpose conflict, deep inner tiredness from emotions, food conflicts, sexual conflicts, transformation conflicts

Current unconscious patterns up for resolution: deep seated fear.

Current Mind/Body age patterns being worked through: 8, 12, 30.

The remedies are a special pattern of: Calc. fluor.; Calc. sulph.; Lachesis; and a pattern for integrating the Mahat with the Ahamkara and therefore to the manas.

Please feel free to call me (see attached file).

Blessings, David"

I have the pills which I'm to take 4 of 2x per day.  I called him for more information.  BTW he is a brilliant and compassionate person.  I trust him.  I felt that immediately.  He said my body is in chaos and that I have 4 major areas of concern.  That any one of these would have caused the tumor, but that all 4 are existing and boiling within me now, and that this first course of remedies will help the larger issues.  I need to take the remedies for the next 24 days, get mild-moderate exercise everyday, do my meditation and he gave me a wonderful technique to implement.

I admitted that vegetarianism didn't feel right for me, and he said that it's because vegetarianism/veganism isn't for everyone!  It's not for me and I need to treat meat (specifically chicken and lamb) like a curry: add it in, but don't overwhelm the dish with it.  Dr. Russell assured me that meat will pacify my vata imbalance.  He also advised for me to be mindful with prayer during food prep and eating, because I'm "feeding" my body on several levels.  I was further assured that it's ok to dance with my food, or while I prepare it.  Sprinkle it with joy.  My body is a house of worship!  This is an important time to be gentle with myself.  He also reminded me that for transformation to occur I need to tap into my deeper self, because I'm ready.

"I cook/eat with presence for the health and happiness of my body and soul."

Lastly, because the tumor is slow growing, a biopsy will be too aggressive of an approach at this time.  I should consider delaying it.  My DNA reads that I do not have cancer, so I have time to explore this approach and put faith into my body's ability to heal itself.  This is what Dr, E. Miller refers to as the Mind Body connection.